GO

I let the pain dim my light because I wasn’t paying attention…well I was…but I was paying attention to the pain because it hurt….hurting people hurt people…I hurt….so in return I hurt…I cry as I write…what do I do when I’m guilty of allowing the dimming of my light? What do I do when I know inside something is just not right…I let the cares of this world snuff out my light….my light is dim but my heart still has a glimmer of hope…hope that what God started He would indeed finish… Hope that no matter how far I stray….if I reach for Him He will still show me the way…I don’t know what this life holds I’m just going to take my Fathers hand and move on….move on to the place he would have me to be…move on to be His shining star….move on to help someone else….because I don’t want to hurt anymore and I don’t want to hurt. I just want to be free…free from the guilt, hurt and shame…free from the voice in my head that accuses me all the time…you’re not good enough…you’re just good at putting on a show….if they really knew you….the one I really know…..they would never approve….because then they would know….scared all the time….always unsure….waffling back and forth God can’t be pleased with me….STOP!….you don’t even know your worth…..stop listening to that brash, unforgiving, hurtful voice. Listen to Me I’m your Creator I know what I put inside of you….Hear Me. My voice is soft I want you to hear me I want you to stop…get very still….listen for me…I’m always here….it hurts when you hurt…I hurt when you hurt…I know what ails you but I also know the cure…focus on Me that’s the only way….focus on Me and your light will shine bright….you are mine…you belong to me….don’t listen to the loud voice only listen to Me….don’t be discouraged…your light, however dim, remains lit…. that’s why you’re so distraught about not shining it….it’s there….but focus on Me….I know what you feel inside….little by little you have been disappointed, discouraged and depleted….little by little so you wouldn’t notice your light was dimming…..I know you…I approve of you….you are My child….my creation…my joy….my light…you are everything I knew you would be…you have a heart…a conscious….you hear me ….you listen to me….you are malleable…I can shape you… mold you….and you don’t break…you are already everything I wanted….everything I need….you’re just afraid you will get hurt…afraid of the pain…don’t be scared…I’m here…show the world who you are….step into the big shoes I have for you….there will be no regrets….no desire to step back….it’s time to graduate….step into your new shoes….share who you really are….your mistakes…your failures….your triumphs…your dreams…your strength….your encouragement…share it all…those with ears will hear….those with hearts will feel…anything else is not yours to deal….it’s not your problem….GO FORTH AND HEAL….You are healed…healed people heal people….the pain you feel is not all your own…how could you heal if you could not at first feel?….cry no more…dry your tears….you are everything I have ever wanted….when I look at you I see love….only love…my true love….I am releasing you in all my power….go and tell them who I am…what I do….where they can find me….and that I always knew…I knew they would come looking for me that’s why I have waited….I wait for them to see my face….I wait for them to see what I see…..the love and none of the hate….I wait for them to reach down and grab hold of the faith the courage the light I placed within them…they are everything I’ve ever wanted….. tell them that….even through your tears….tell them as I wipe away your tears that all they need is me, my love, my compassion, my acceptance….tell them that….so they to can feel….tell them that I am real…tell them that the pain is temporary and sent to distract but that I can turn it all around and bring meaning to the pain….a message from their misery….tell them it is already okay….and that I am with them every step of the way….do you see now? do you see what I am trying to do? I can bring you through your hurt, I can bring you through your pain, I can bring you to me and heal you of your wounds. Then I will release you into a sea of wounded souls, to be my light, to share my light. Let go of the fear, let go of the pain. My children need me. Go do as I ask. Be my hands, my feet, my mouth, my heart. Be my messenger of hope and joy. YOUR stripes hurt…your stripes took away…your stripes discouraged but BY MY stripes you are healed…..the healed see through eyes that know….the healed act from hearts that feel….healed people heal…Go forth and do what I need you to do. Do what I have told you to do. Look at me…no….really look….don’t walk away from me unwilling…unable…unworthy or distraught…there is no need for that….this not the time for that… Zechariah 4:6 (NIV) 6 So he said to me, “This is the word of the Lord to Zerubbabel: ‘Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,’ says the Lord Almighty.

Look at me….now look TO me….it’s not by your might…it’s by mine

Matthew 28:18-20 (NIV) 18 Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

I have your back…..it’s time Go.

God is good!

Ms Wanda, GAC